Annoyingly I've been finding myself turning to Facebook, in the hope of finding out some juicy gossip or trying to find work through other people, but to no avail. But on Sunday evening I saw a post that brightened up my evening. I saw that the director of the last short film I did was uploading the film to the internet for the whole wide world to watch.
I eagerly logged on to the website waiting for it to upload, but after 4 hours and still nothing, at 1.30am, I decided to call it a night.
Once I opened my eyes on Monday morning, I remembered the film, and immediately got back online. Lo and behold, it was there, with no views. I was the first one to set eyes on the finished product.
I was apprehensive about pressing play. I'm not really a fan of watching myself back so soon after shooting it, I like to wait a while until I almost forget it, and then be pleasantly surprised (hopefully!)
I could not have been happier with this one. Filming is weird, because you never know what it looks like unless you ask to watch takes back, which I don't. As long as the director is happy. I'm happy.
The film was shot beautifully, it was the first time I had seen the other actors, which was also very exciting. The cleverness of linking the scenes really made me smile, and despite being in the film and having read the script several times, it still managed to surprise me and make me cry.
As I've said, I don't like watching myself back, and this may sound big-headed, but I thought I was pretty darn good in it! I will normally watch myself once, but after the first viewing, I went straight back in for viewing number two, and even had a few more during the day.
I've never been prouder of a film that I've been in, and the fact that I was asked to be in it by someone who I've worked with before made it that much more special. He had seen what I could do, and wanted me for his (very important) project.
It was just the boost I needed on a Monday morning to kick my confidence up a notch, and remember that I can do it, I just need to believe in myself.
So, thanks again to Matt and Jamie for creating a beautiful film, thank you to Scott for being an amazing co-actor and bringing out the best in my performance through your work. And thank you to everyone who has supported the film in some way, even by just clicking 'like' on Facebook. After 4 days it's already seen over 400 views, which is pretty spectacular.
And if you haven't seen it, here it is, just for you. 'Alice & Jack'... Enjoy :)
http://vimeo.com/94864705
Nxxx
