A public apology...

This post is for my friends. I’m sorry. Bleurgh. Summertime.

Quite possibly the busiest time of the year for me and I’ve neglected all of you. There are not enough words to use to express my apologeticness, but know that I am ridiculously sorry, and I plan to make it up to you very, very soon.

The last few months have been crazy in terms of busy-ness. After my Neverland shows at the end of May, I thought that things would calm down. I was very wrong. I immediately plunged straight into writing my next play, which took far longer than I expected, and I think I was more infuriated than the cast after promising “I’ll have it done by next week” every single week.

Oops.

Add to that, full time hours kicked in at the park, taking up most of my weekdays. Sandwich in a production in Bedford and an audiobook, and I’m starting to find it hard to find hours to sleep.

I have missed baby showers, weddings, birthdays and births, and I’m deeply sorry to all of you that I have missed all of these amazing occasions.

People have been accepting of things, knowing that acting is tough, and that I have to take jobs where I can get them, but I feel awful about it. I know that I only plan on getting married once, so to miss someone else’s special day isn’t the best feeling. And with two friends having given birth weeks ago, and not being free enough to go and meet their new arrivals sucks.

Things aren’t even going to let up much in the near future either…

I’ve started rehearsals for a new play with my John which will be performed next month, my production with the kids is on at the beginning of November, I’m putting together a show with 4 schools combined in December, and I’m planning out potentially new classes to teach too.

According to my phone, my November show is only 66 days away, and I’m really not as prepared as I have been for previous shows. I’m only writing this blog post as an excuse to get away from show admin! I have all of the programme information to sort, costumes and props to source, theatre arrangements to make, costume checking days to be sorted, soundtrack to complete, and everything show admin-wise to ready before show week. Which I know will creep up on me ridiculously quickly.

And then I’ll have to do it all again for my Christmas show. Yippee.

Thankfully I’ve only got four more days of park work this week, (thank goodness- I’ve had enough of rude a***hole customers shouting at me and making me cry!) then I’m only down to one day a week there until my next play is done.

I was very sad to have another play that I had been cast in postponed this month, but I’m quite relieved as I now have a little more time to actually breathe!
Oh, apart from finding a house to move into. Another sorry goes to my future housemate for actually being quite useless in the whole house searching saga. We’ll find one!

Monday morning is going to be wonderful, I’m going to sleep til noon (with any luck), and not have to rock up to work until 4! Bliss.
Then it’s full steam ahead on various show businesses and things will be marvellous. It will be so nice to be back working by myself instead of having to spend my days in the vicinity of others that make my life a little more grey every time I see them. (Ooh, Natalie, why so cryptic, I hear you ask. Don’t worry, they’ll get what’s coming to them!)

So fingers crossed for smooth show running, baby cuddles and catching up with my favourite people. Because I miss you all, and once again I am sorry. Once I win my Oscar I’ll sell it and take us all away!

Oh, and one more thing. P, I’m sorry yet again. Thank you for sticking by me when you really had no reason to stay. Thank you for keeping me smiling and laughing when I just wanted to cry and shut the world out. Have tuppence for your troubles! I love you. Even if you do build dens in my bedroom and harass me with drunk texts (right now!)

Nxxx